Stream of Consciousness on a Friday in early September

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I’ve climbed the highest mountain of my life. 

There are other mountains to climb, but none will be as significant as this one

I say that now, but I’m also ready to receive new experiences that will be higher and better than IML.

I’m just very curious what it would take to top IML (LOLOL, yes, take this how you want)

I’m at the point where I can say that I’m getting on in years and that my life is running its course.

I have no idea when I will have finished the race, but I sense that this won’t be for many years.

I have been known for saying I will outlive you all, but that’s not so important to me any more.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t still want to live my life to the fullest.

You might think “Why’s he writing about this? He’s in the prime of his life.”

I don’t know why I felt the urge to write this, but I did write it for a reason.

I will admit that I’m starting to wonder what I will do with all the time I have left. 

I’m in a race with the weeds around me to make sure my garden stays growing.

I want to make sure I keep knowing how to smile slightly when I hear a retro-modern key change

There’s a dozen other things like the last two I could tack back on, but I’ll save that for my poetry.

Enough of my life is playing out at 1.5x speed of a YT vid. Time to slow down from fast forward mode. 

If I want enough energy to live the rest of my life, this just might be in order.

the world of my inner mind still exists in is life-until-now-pristine state. Shaped by jagged edges of current events and disease, but then those jagged edges sanded out and the whole artwork of my Beingness sanded down one later closer its finished product.



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