blank, white walls

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blank, white walls
 by Eagle Bear

blank, white walls 
inside this apartment 
surround on all sides
no portraits or paintings
hung up for color

deaf as pale
not to dictate 
but to reflect back
life as has been lived
when life is being lived

their shine not as obvious
as when stuck inside
or when the choice is made
to stay inside waiting
for life to happen

a search for meaning
during this pandemic
is to feel tension in lips
closed but not pursed

sometimes a blank page
makes a better fantasy
than the best lover
but not this time

blank, white walls 
don’t project Hands 
that grip their protege 
at the nape
that don't project hands 
as they seek their own 
red light district revelation

they won’t project the space 
of breath being shared 
between two in play
one man’s body pulled closer 
on impulse of desire

but these moments of heat
played on mental projector
dull these white walls
for just long enough
to jar the thinker

they are a reminder
of what awaits
on the other side
when the order if lifted
and both can leave home

give 20-second hugs
raise glasses in chear
to festive drag queens
who kept us entertained
that “gotta-keep-the-lights-on”
Jewel that shines so bright

boys hungry for a good time
boys who just want a beer
people who seek refuge
against abuse and neglect
they face at home right now

when the connections
a community faces
all risk vanishing
if not tended to well enouhg

when we mix with the sad reality
that history will repeat 
in some future decade
because we haven’t learned
what blank, white walls
are supposed to mean in art

these blank, white walls
fix fortunes on learning
how to show the future
not just to tell it
how to hint and cruise
how to die and then to live

once again we are
thrust into a coon
once again we will emerge
to embrace the highest
totem animal: butterfly
we will spread our wings
swoop a relief loop

©2020 Eric Franklin Crow



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